meme

i had strong urges everyday to convert my daily life as meme

the only problem would be, i dont have the generator..OTL

a quote

at the hospital:

l lay down. then i sit. and i stare. at the nothingness.

and then he came.

"hey".

and he smiled. he rarely smile at me at home. why now?

"i brought you seafood macaroni. its your favourite."

and still smiling.

"no, its YOUR favourite. i'm allergic to seafood", i said.

he looked baffled.

#flashback#

"its really good. i made it myself. mmm...", as i spoon for more.

"but..but you ate.."

"because i want you to eat. because i know its your favourite. and i know you will be away for a couple of days after."

i waited as he tried to digest that.

"hey, i'm tired. i want to take a nap"

"it's okay. just sleep. i dont mind". and a smile again. whats with him today?

"i'd..rather be alone". and the smile's gone.

"oh..okay then, i'll just..leave you to your nap. i'll come and visit you again tomorrow..". and he's gone

come again? what for? god, the things i do for the one i love most..

LIKELIKELIKE!!!:DDDD

talking to yourself?

have you ever talk to yourself before?

do you even realise if you're talking to yourself or its just the voice inside of your head.

hey, lets be honest yeah,

i think its normal when you talk to yourself.

but there is a fine line between nuts and normal.

at leat thats what i've read before.

so, when do you talk to yourself?

let me do my list.

1. when i'm talking to my parts of the body especially when i'm in pain.

2. when i suddenly remember something so embarassing,

i have to talk to my brain to shut that memory off.

(trust me, i have plenty of those)

3.when i have to cheer up myself about something

especially when there no one to depend on but myself

4.when i need the encouragement to do something, and theres no one around.

5.when i hope so much for something, and it didnt happen,

i have to talk myself down to never ever dreaming on the false hope

and keep going.

oookkay, thats quite a lot...

am i normal?

rant

something's wrong with me today

i feel stuffy

the air is too heavy...

with something..

haaaaaaaaaaaa....

this is not good. not good at all,

and why? why does every, every single time i'm in conversation

the topic will always always be the same??

yes people!

my love life died on me.

no, no your hope for me is still as dark as ever if not more.

i.dont.even.want.to talk.about,it,anymore.

the mystery of a lost mother

di suatu petang yang mencuka ...

saya kehilangan ibu saya..

penat melilau mata..

namun xjugak saya jumpa.

lalu saya keluar bilik dan memanggil..

dibilik dianjung

pintu ke pintu dibuka

tapi dia tiada..

lalu saya ke pangkin di bawah pokok sana

dan kepada jiran jiran saya bertanya..

tatap juga saya hampa

kerana dia tiada..

lalu saya ke kedai pula

dan kepada pekedai saya bertanya

dimana gerangan mak berada

tapi dia tidak dijumpa..

lalu pekedai berkata

"mak kau ada kat kebun seberang jalan agaknya"

tapi xmungkin pula

kerana mak tidak ke sana..

lalu saya patah balik ke pangkin di bawah pokok

dan kepada jiran jiran saya bertanya

lalu jiran jiran berkata

"mak kau ade kat kebun belakang agaknya"

lalu saya terus jalan ke belakang sana..

lalu ke belakang rumah saya menerokai

mata besar dibuka

semoga dengan mak saya berjumpa

namun hati hiba kecewa

kerana mak x kunjung tiba..

lalu saya pergi ke terus mendekati hutan

menjauhi jiran jiran

dekat dengan pokok rambutan

dan AHAH!! itu dia mak saya dicelah celah tumbuh tumbuhan..

ke situ saya bergegas

melihat mak dikerumun dek nyamuk dan agas

saya tgk mak mula berlengas

kata mak, dia sedang menanam nanas..

lalu saya berasa gembira

mak yang hilang sudah dijumpa

namun kegembiraan itu tidak lama

sebab saya kena mencangkul akhirnya.

worrying

and here i am hoping for another show or competition or anything..

anything at all..

i really miss dancing..

and not just the feel of it, or the movements..

i miss the environment, the mirror, the songs, the other dancers..

for the last month,

i've been eating, watching countless movies,

sleeping, reading, cooking,

watch anything and everything on youtube,

writing on my blog that no one read,

watching all those clips of our performances..

and i realize,, over the past two years

i now, cant count how many times and how many songs i have done,,

its not like i'm cocky or great dancer or anything like that,

no, not at all..its just that..

i cant no longer count the experience, the nervousness

of performing, the euphoria of it..

which means= it is no longer only one time kind of thing..

it has became me and i, it.

and after the uni over, i dont even know what am i gonna do..

what choises do i have..

but for now..i'll just carry on with this endless cycle

eating n watching and cooking and sleeping over and over again..

i dont suppose i'll continue to dance, officially i mean

after graduation..

so, i think, i'm gonna enjoy my (maybe) final yr of uni

to the fullest and cherish it after it all end..:(

18 and above only :)

i'd love to see the hit counter by the end of the day..haha

its not like i have readers or anything...=_=

anyway~

i'm not going to post any sexual related videos, or link, or sound clips..

no no no no.....not this time anyway o_0;

i was just idling around the house, looking at my brother watching the tv

when i suddenly wonder..what makes people rates the movies and dramas?

from the content i guess, and there are a lots of categories too.

there's G for (general) atau bahasa melayunya U (umum) yg semua org boleh tgk,

then in malaysia they skip from U terus kepada 18PA, SG, SX, n etc..

yg berunsur ganas, seram, sex, politik atau/dan agama yg tidak keterlaluan

for international level they have PG13 (parental guardian) kena diawasi oleh org dewasa,

NC 17(no childeren under 17) and R(rated, untuk org dewasa sahaja)

this is just from what i observed, and it differs from a country to another.

i'm not really sure about all this, so please correct me if i'm wrong.

salt: a PG rated movie for its bits of violence

mr. magorium's wonder emporium: rated as G, suitable for children

now, according to wiki,

age of 18 dipanggil sebagai age of majority..

ini bermakna, anda sudah tidak terikat lagi di bawah jagaan ibu bapa

dan boleh menbuat keputusan sendiri.

xpaham lagi?

kau dah boleh kawen la senang cite.

maybe for some people 18 is nothing..

being 18 maybe just means that

'i 've stop growing'

'wow, i'm a big girl now'

but it is important to know,

being 18 means, if you are arrested,

it will no longer classified under the kes juvana.

you're fully an adult, that can buy cigrattes, go to 18 rated movies,

berkahwin dgn kehendak sendiri, menandatangani kontrak,

meminum arak, dan memandu kenderaan..

(ini adalah hukum yg dibuat manusia, jgn pula kita lupa hukum yg ditetapkan oleh ALLAH)

hantu kak limah balik rumah: tontonan U

anda sendiri la rate yg nih..haha

berumur 18 thun ini

distereotypekan seperti seseorg itu sudah pon

mempunyai pertimbangan yg matang.

yg sudah tahu membezakan sesuatu yg baik dan yg buruk,

yg benar dan yg palsu, dan tahu bertindak sendiri.

sungguhpun, bukan semua org mampu berbuat demikian tatkala mencapai 18,

aku kira, yg umur ini dikira sebagai label yg membezakan anda sebagai org dewasa

dgn kanak2 dari segi fizikal.

so, enough about what i think heres a few facts about age of majority:

1) By age 18, the human brain stops growing. As a matter of fact, the human brain after age 18 begins to lose more than 1,000 brain cells each day. Do not fear: since the fully developed brain has over 100 billion cells, at the rate of losing 1,000 cells each day, it will take 300,000 years before your brain is out of cells.

2) At age of 18, you can buy cigrattes in new zealand; it is increased from 16 in 1997

3) William Shakespeare berkahwin dgn seorang wanita bernama Anne Hathaway yg berusia 26 tahun ketika dia berumur 18 thun.

4) Manusia berdedah kepada matahari 50% ke 80% dari pendedahan kepada matahari seumur hidup mereka sebelum usia 18 thun.

p/s; BM n BI dah bercampur gaul menjadi pecal..sorry..huhu