worrying

and here i am hoping for another show or competition or anything..

anything at all..

i really miss dancing..

and not just the feel of it, or the movements..

i miss the environment, the mirror, the songs, the other dancers..

for the last month,

i've been eating, watching countless movies,

sleeping, reading, cooking,

watch anything and everything on youtube,

writing on my blog that no one read,

watching all those clips of our performances..

and i realize,, over the past two years

i now, cant count how many times and how many songs i have done,,

its not like i'm cocky or great dancer or anything like that,

no, not at all..its just that..

i cant no longer count the experience, the nervousness

of performing, the euphoria of it..

which means= it is no longer only one time kind of thing..

it has became me and i, it.

and after the uni over, i dont even know what am i gonna do..

what choises do i have..

but for now..i'll just carry on with this endless cycle

eating n watching and cooking and sleeping over and over again..

i dont suppose i'll continue to dance, officially i mean

after graduation..

so, i think, i'm gonna enjoy my (maybe) final yr of uni

to the fullest and cherish it after it all end..:(